Annoyed.
I’ve come a long way from the mess I was mid last year. Somehow I found happiness and peace as 3rd year started. Little did I bother about my surroundings as I had this little world I built and stayed in.
As fairytale as it sounds, there’s always this dragon that comes and burns the village. Some dick head just had to ruin that happiness I had.
I comforted you when you felt down and lost. Told you to make new friends and be happy instead because I know how it feels to let go of someone you trully love. But instead of going off and building your own life, you decided to come into mine. Then you complain about not being able to blend in and was down about it. I had to tell my friends to tone it down so as to make sure you don’t get hurt. It was fine at first, then it got annoying. It’s not my fault that you suddenly had feelings for me and thought I was the one you could mix with. We’re from different worlds and you would hardly understand me when I go full blown English.
Who I am to you is a mere reflection of yourself.
You made things awkward between all of us and I had to ignore you because well,I built this life from scratch and I wouldn’t let anything ruin it. Weeks have passed and I’ve forgotten this whole incident ever happened and am back to treating you as a friend.
But now you are starting it all over again, overwhelming yourself with self pity. Why cant you just find your own life, be confident and live it? Why do you always put on that pity face and make my friends think that you need them and making things hard and awkward for me? And I’m supposed to be alright with you?
I’m not going to stop my friends from asking you out. Let it be. Maybe I’ll just find myself my own life and let you have what I had.
Maybe I should be some kind of a saint, always giving away what I have.
Sheesh.
