Someone like you.

Yes, you were amazing but you tore me today.

Yes I liked you alot. Like really alot. But it’s obvious now isn’t it, that you have always loved her. You say you feel the same way about me, but you don’t, because if you do, you wouldn’t hurt me. You wouldn’t make me feel this way.

You promised that you wouldn’t let me cry. Not like how the ex did.

You know, I read all your messages when I miss you? I stayed patient when you were so busy with work. I should have gotten it. I should have know. How did I get so blind yet again?

You really love her. You know why? Because you can never let go of her. I respect that. But I wish you didn’t pull me into this. Coz in the end, all I get is heartbreak. Thats all I’m left with.

I know I have so much to say. But I don’t know where to write them down. Or how to.

Did you see how much I cried? :) Maybe that way,you’d understand.

Goodbye. 

You found me.

Lost and insecure,
You found me.

Your job has gotten the best of you,
So much so, that you have very little time for us.

Miss you so. 

You’re just not the one.

Dear,

I really like you. You were the one who was with me when I was at the lowest point of my life. Somehow you picked me up and encouraged me through and I owe you for that. But I can’t take living in a lie anymore. Feels like we’re on a rocking boat of no destination. Why are we cheating ourselves?

Maybe what you feel for me is plain sympathy which leaves you confused everytime you see us getting closer. If you are so afraid, why put us through this turmoil anyway?

I don’t know how I feel about you. You’ve always been someone special in my life. I really hope I don’t have to walk away.

I pray that God will somehow show me a sign and will help me have faith in us. But right now, I guess I don’t want to.

I don’t want to be hurt again. I’ve had enough.

Yours trully. 

Today.

Yes, God has prepared me in many ways. So much of hurt and sorrow,to face today.

I’m cured. I’m stronger than I ever was. Thank you for you made me who I’ve always wanted to be. Someone you will never have.

Don’t live in denial. Who are you hiding from? Everyone knows our story. Accept it. You love her,you never did love me.

Because if you loved me,you wouldn’t have loved another.

And admit it, after all these years,I know you too well. :)

Good luck. Don’t hurt her the way you hurt me. She was my friend.

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.

I wish I could drink cheap bottles of wine.

Maybe it’s just me. I’m just not meant for relationships. First him, now you.

I wonder if it’s something I say or do?

Why are you still hanging around her? You say I’m your priority,and she’s nothing but your ex, but you keep running to her every time. And when you screamed at me just now, what was I supposed to do? I’ve never raised my voice at you. You have magnificent ways of turning my words around, making me the one to be blamed at every accusation. Is it a guy thing or am I just weak? Because this wouldn’t be the first time a guy is doing this to me.

I wonder if you can sleep through this, because I can’t. I can’t go to bed feeling this way. I wish you knew.

Tell me dear, are you coming home? 

Dream.

I’ve always wanted to do medicine, ever since I knew myself. But I don’t deny I now regret it from time to time. Not that I hate it, is whether I’m capable of being what I’ve always dreamt myself to be.

But today I know, I’m going to be a doctor and I am proud of what I am/going to be. 

Mistakes

Have you ever wondered if your mistakes were ever forgiven?

I’ve made mine,I wonder if people still judge for those mistakes I did.

Do you have yours?

Lessons you learn from the tv.

I was watching Scrubs Season2 Episode 1 today morning when things were messed up at Sacred Heart, that’s when JD said : “Sometimes when you do nothing, things will just fall into place.”

Well, I’ve been thinking alot about us. Maybe your absence is making me miss you more than usual and maybe I’ve been bit too free. HAHA.

I’m not too sure where this post is leading to. Well maybe, I just wanna say that maybe I should just do nothing. LOL.

Have a good day.